wow,i didn't realised that my last entry was my 100th post till they stated in the dash board.=p its been a long time and i forgot why i started a blog but i was glad i did.(actually i have 2 other blogs hehe one is defunct and another one is my secret blog wahaha)

anyway,wanted to write about something that i found out that i didn't know about someone even though i had known this friend for 3 years already and i felt really ashamed that none of us knew.I mean its hard to know some personal things about someone if they are unwilling to share but it makes me feel worse was that i didn't really tried to find out.so i hope this fren of mine can stay strong and jia you.we will be there for you =)

back to a happy topic,CNY is a wk away!!! =D really looking forward to all the nice goodies and meeting up with my family and friends! went shopping with mum n sis and finally bought some clothes and neccessities.whew.but i still need to get one white top to match my skirt and another pants.and most impt a pair of heels and flats each.hopefully there's stil time =)

my exams are coming! mock exam in march and finals in may.i muz really start on my revision schedule and work hard.really wish to do well this time.jia you kelly!

things can be unexpected.at times,you dun wish for things to turn this way,but it would or vice versa.

met up with the 1st 3 months gang to go chinatown to have dinner and indulge in the festivities,but the sky was not very cooperative and rained heavily.Chris and i met first at cityhall cos the rest wld be late,so we went window shopping for awhile before heading to suntec's gelare for some waffles yums.then we went over to meet jz at tanjong pagar,but it rained even heavier.we were so disappointed cos din really expected it to rain.so we were thinking hard on where to go and what to do for plan b haha.finally decided to go kovan for dinner lo cos most convenient.mc cant make it cos had to go home.so the five of us,kr n dan met us at tanjong pagar shortly after.its been ard 2 months since we last met so its feels good that we managed to come together only sadly mc not ard.but it was still quite fun,at lest beta then the last outing.we had dinner at thai express until they close shop haha.after that we walked over to dan's place downstairs at the void deck to talk till ard 11 before heading home.overall, it was nice meeting up with them though not as often as before but the times spent are well worth it.=)

next outing,hee hopefully can celeb my bday! =p looking forward to d-day.

was watching 'tian ya xia yi' on chn 55 just now.
just suddenly had this strong feeling that we should not take things for granted sometimes,perhaps all the time.even a doctor who saves people can be sick himself,he is after all only human.people get vulnerable even when they appear to be strong most of the time.it may be just a little thing or incident that can make him crumble or fall apart.I always make sure i feel positive or optimistic even when things get down,but still there are times when i dun wish to be strong all the time.sometimes just wish to turn to someone and talk to them.i don't know how but whenever i talk to my sis,and it always feels good =)
but i also remind myself not to be over dependent on others,cos people cant be there for you always and forever.min told me this before,that the only person you can count on is yourself and i agree totally.thus,i wish to be more independent.

recalling my conversation with cheryl awhile ago,and it seems that we realise that its always easy to start liking but it is hard to fall.as quoted from someone's blog,"There are so many people around me. And yet sometimes, I hear a million "no's" resounding in my head."i agree with him,although i don't know him personally but i can understand why he feels this way.

"it may take just a small gesture,a gentle touch of the hand,a sincere heartwarming smile,a warm tight hug to just brighten your day"

understanding

i don't understand.

sometimes we have to live up to people's expectations, to be conscious of how and what others think,that we often forgot to stop and ask ourselves whether this is necessary or what we really want.

we don't.
we continue with our lives,doing often what we think people want us to be or what we ought to do.As we grow up and matures, this concept got stuck with us along the way and we bring it with us to the next generations and more.It may be beneficial in a way you stay motivated and follow good examples,just make sure we don't lose ourselves on the way.

from young,its been a norm that parents compare their kids with one another,parents may not be bothered or affected but the kids are able to sense this competition.as they matures,this may bring pressures and stress on them.after schooling comes work,people may compare work,marriage,kids again.It just comes one full circle.

hmm,thats why i think everything and everyone's connected somehow or another.haa how amazing.

just some thoughts.no worries =p

-fri-
had my econs test in the morning but i think i didn't do well for it.but at least i know where my mistakes are =p after that,had lunch with sha,sean n hm.fun time with them cos they always make me laugh =) after lunch went to meet yijun,ching,joyce,kelly n magdalene at the bus stop cos they are rushing off to relc for payment.i accompanied them there cos they are going shopping after that =p magdalene went off first meeting us afterwards.It was already very crowded at relc.Had to queue for quite some time before everything's done.joyce stayed back to wait for her fren,so the rest of us headed to far east first.It been a long time since i shopped with them again since that time with elaine they all at bugis.haha its quite fun cos ching was acting as a consultant for kelly n me cos we were searching for our CNY clothes.haha in the end we din get anything but had in mind some things we gonna get.ching,yijun n me then head off to zara at ard 5plus cos yijun wanna use her zara vouchers while kelly n mag stayed at far east.on the way there, we got coconuts from a nearby stall at outside pacific plaza there.haa quite a funny sight 3 of us sipping our coconuts.it was so refreshing =p after zara,ching went off first to meet her fren then yj n i went wheelock pl for awhile b4 heading to orchard stn.haha so coincidentally,we saw kelly again! haa she on her way to find ching.then finally headed home.so tired ah..

-sat-
woke up real late ard 11am with a big headache and feverish self.just felt really sick so popped a panadol tablet hoping i will feel beta.after mum got me lunch,i went back to sleep till ard evening.wah my fever reached 39.2d! horrifying high! and sorethroat too haa so had some measures to fight this,drink loads of water,herbal tea,barley,mainly to hydrate urself.had fish porridge and do practically nothing like me just watched tv and read my "angels n demons' book and keep the wet towel on my forehead. by 12plus, my fever subsided to 37.0d whew!! so it all works! =) relieved man so next time anyone gets fever try all these methods k. tried and tested =p

-sun-
stayed home with min while mum n dad went to do some cny shopping.lazed ard as usual for my sundays. =p wanted to go shop for clothes but just got well din really wanna squeeze with the crowds hopefully can finish or start haa my shopping by next week. =)

13 days to CNY!! counting down and looking forward =)

such a cold weather.

jiujiu took his flight back to japan while I was still in dreamland zzz wanted to send him off but was too lazy to wake up.so bad of me.guily.its the 2nd time already haiz.i hope he doesnt mind.
after a late breakfast,we went orchard with mum for some CNY shopping.oh my,its already full of people there in the early afternoon.Streams and streams of people spilled into orchard like us,so we started walking around.but there's simply too many people to enjoy shopping.helped mum picked out some clothes for her,while min n I cant seem to find anything we like.After some trying and fitting,got some stuff and headed for some snacks.i just love the crispy curry puff at taka square there.yums there are some things you just cant resist.Just feel that these few days seems to have been playing in slow motion,nothing much gets down and just plain lazy.haha I must really buck up!

Just really looking forward to CNY,at least thats when I can really enjoy and meet up with some family i haven seen for awhile,to catch up with them.well,though there are some i dun really wish to meet.haha

As I stared at the computer screen,my mind was blank on what to write about.My eyes were fixed on the time at the right bottom corner as the time strikes 1200pm.It was just a minute passed then its changed.Time really has a habit of slipping away.I remembered what min told me about what aunt eve told her about time.The clock is right twice a day even when the clock is spoiled.get what it means?I didn't at first until min explained to me.It because even when the clock stopped functioning,it stops at a specific time, and the time will pass by this timing twice a day.This is the same as life,even when make mistakes,there will be a time you will do it right =)
Thus,in the new year, I really hope it will be a good year for me to learn and grow.To see your family getting older(mum and dad are closing on fifty),your cousins growing up(randall's pri one!),your friends growing with you,time don't stop and we don't to.But sometimes I have to slow down my steps and look around and to be reminded and realise once more what are the things that matters so much to me while some actually don't matter that much anymore.I want the things that matters most to me to take priority and work towards my goals in this brand new year,a better me.

=)

Now we are together, sitting outside in the sunshine
But soon we'll be apart and soon it'll be night at noon
Now things are fine, the clouds are far away up in the sky
But soon I'll be on a plane and soon you'll feel the cold rain

You promised to stay in touch when we're apart
You promised before i left that you'll always love me.
Time goes by, people cry, everything goes too fast.
Now we have each other enjoying each moment with one another
But soon I'll be miles away and soon the phone will be our only way

You promised we'll never break up over the telephone
You said our love was stronger than an ocean apart
Time goes by and people lie, everything goes too fast.

Let's not fool ourselves in vain, this far away trip will give us pain
We'll have to be so strong to keep our love from going wrong
Distance will make us cold, even put our love on hold
But soon we'll meet again and soon it'll be bright at noon again

You promised not to loose faith in our love when i'm away
You promised so much to me but now you've left me
We go by and then we lie all this time we wasted
Time goes by, people lie everything goes too fast.

Time went by, and then we died, everything went too fast.

an ocean apart by julie delpy (before sunset soundtrack)
a beautiful track i love